Let Go your anger please

Hmmm........Have you let go your anger and grudge ????

Ya...I do have "Grudge" before ...I hate The so call "enemy " so so much,
I will get angry Every time when she did those "Bitchy" things....
And Always quarreled with her......But in the end ,I got nothing but only pain ...
Quarreling with your best friend and betrayed by your best friend is a very painful thing.

But soon after my best friend advised me and made me Let go everything ...I feel so comfortable, so free...
I am, very happy ....IS real....Very very very happy..
I am not angry of her anymore...I started to avoid her blog...everything from her...
and slowly .....i forgot everything about us....i am not angry anymore....
Even she and her friend keep disturbing my blog or viewing by blog....I also try to ignore and delete their message ....
U know...I felt relief every time when i had successfully ignore their msg ...........
I Really Let go ..................
Angry of some one is in fact hurting yourself...u are the one that suffer in the grudge.......not your enemy .....

I can live happily always...why not you??????
Girl ...stop doing all the useless stuff ....And don't do the same thing !
I am not scare about you....I just trying to let you know what I did to you and what you've done to me..
Please STOP! Won't you feel bored doing all these again and again?
I'm lazy to even reply already.. ^^

I AM AFRAID!!! I AM UNDER PRESSURE!! I AM Totally Under Pressure !!!

Just woke up now....I felt very pressure ...totally Under PRESSURE !!!!
I Can't sleep well.......because of my job ...I can't handle the call ....I can't .....I am pressure...under pressure......I am very tired right now !!!!!!! I trying to sleep.......but i have a nightmare.......the non stop nightmare.....I can't sleep well.............I can't .............I am totally Under Pressure...................

PRESSURE PRESSURE PRESSURE PRESSURE PRESSURE PRESSURE PRESSURE
I am totally Under Pressure.

I am totally Under Pressure.

I am totally Under Pressure.

I am tired ......I am sick of it ...........I am tired ...........Please....anyone can help me?

I am Depressed .....

I am Depressed .........

I am useless...i can't take the pressure...i can't handle my own job....i can't ...i spoil my 1st job.......

I want to quit.............I don't want to involved my colleague....................I don't want to involved anyone....................

I am Depressed ..............................

I am Depressed..............................

I am totally Under Pressure.

Pressure............Pressure ..........Pressure................................................................

I am disappointed on myself........Useless........I spoiled my 1st job............

I can't take the job...I am afraid to face to all my colleague and the call....
i am afraid to step into the office now...I am afraid to sit in front of the office table with tons of called from the customer.......I am afraid to take the call...........

I am Pressure ...I am pressure....
I want to stay inside my room..........I just want to stay inside my room...
I don't want to step out ....I don't want to step into the office.........
I am afraid ...............I am afraid ........

I need help...I need help............anyone can help me????
I am afraid .....................................I am under pressure ........

Pressure ...........................

I am under pressure .......I am under pressure..............................................

PRESSURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And i will resign the job tomorrow........

Under Pressure ...I think i am unable to work....

I got my first real job in my life as a call operator for Jetstar 2 weeks ago. After going through traning for a week, I finally started to answer calls from New Zealand and Australia.

I can't handle the call........i can't !!!!!!!! I am under PRESSURE!!!!!!!!!!!
I choose to work because I had wasted the past 6 months for nothing and my college only starts in August. But the thing is I sleep very late in the night and a normal 9-5pm job is not really my cup of tea. To be honest, I choose to work with the company as I heard that it is a 24hours call centre which provide night shift.

But now, I think that this job is not for me.

This is mainly because of the shifts that I was assigned to. I am an owl. that's why I hated the shift which starts from 7am/9am and ends at 3pm/6pm. I can only take the night shift after I have at least one month experience! wth?

Secondly, I can't take complaining calls as I myself am hot temper. And some of the Aussies are damn freaking rude! I hate it!

Jaya33 is a super nice office suit but the traffic jams in the morning sucks, I got no car and the public transport is very inconvenient!

This is not what I want. I can't take that kind of pressure. Maybe I'm not suitable for the job.

I hate the morning shifts that assigned to me because I feel very tired while working. The shift totally cut down my productivity! I want the night shifts!

The only thing that I appreciate most is that all my colleagues treat me very good. Besides, the office ambiance is pretty difference from ordinary office and it is full of colours!

I am very very tired now. The shift is freaking torturing. I feel like I want to quit the job but I don't hope to end my first job just like that. I want completion as DD always tell me, successful people always complete what they start.

But how?? This is only the first day I handle cal and I started to hate it... Should I go back to my normal life? Will it be better?

Sigh.. I gotta go to bed now, tired. Bye bye, good night guys. take care.. I will update on the Singapore trip as fast as possible ok.. so sorry about that..

MY BLOG FOR ME

This is my blog.. A blog for myself and my readers and friends..

I speak what I think,
I speak what I feel,
I speak what I want to say..

It is a place to express my feelings, be it positive or negative. A place for me to release my feelings and thoughts.. Not a place for you losers to SPAM...

I always welcome people to drop comments if you are interested PROVIDED you leave your identity.. If you just like to spam and talk nonsense, there's no room for you here in my blog.. It is not for bloody idiot people like you.. don't create eye sore for my readers and friends..

You know what? I'm wondering since when I OFFENSE you or your friends??? I admit I do CRITICIZE, SCOLD or whatever BUT I don't remember writing any SPECIFIC NAME in my post or refer the post to SOMEBODY to acknowledge who I'm talking about.. Just to remind you, this is MY BLOG, not yours, you have no right to warn me or tell me what to write! And this is not like any sensitive political issues, I am just expressing my feelings.. you have any damn problems with that?? If you like to LECTURE, go TEACH kindergarden!!

Besides, I am KIND enough to keep the name to myself and respect their confidentiality.. I wondered and still wondering who I have OFFENDED?? A person with no name??? ==' I wonder who has no name in this world..? maybe you are the one.. lolx..

On top of that, Please don't be too SENSITIVE or perhaps I think you are GUILTY that you done something like what I described to your friends, that's why you have such a big reaction to my post..

But let me tell you now, I don't know who the hell are you and how you fucking know who I'm referring to in the post?? I guess Maybe you can read mind like one of my incredible friend??

All LOSERS SPAMMER listen up here!!
If you dare to spam, dare to show yourself, if not, you are simply telling me that you have NO BALLS.. PITY you.. I have plenty of tennis balls to donate to you, is it big enough to substitute your missing BALLS?? or you unable to carry such heavy BALLS??

Don't talk so loud if you don't have BALLS.. don't shame yourself..

The difference between me and you SPAMMERS is, I say what I want to say plus showing my identity.. AND I RESPECT people's confidentiality by not disclosing the identity of who I'm talking about, I guess I have done ENOUGH NOT to OFFENSE anyone..

AND you LOSERS, you just know to hide in the dark and talk nonsense and spoil my blog.. That's what we call OFFENDING!! You ARE the OFFENDER, NOT ME!

Do you understand how to use the word or not?? if not don't ashame yourself in my blog.. although my readers not very much, I still have some readers seeing how you shame yourself here in my blog whenever you talk nonsense..

You know what? that's the difference between us..

I STAY IN LIGHT, AND YOU STAY IN DARKNESS...

BRAKE UP!!

Broke Up already !!!!!!
This is what i can tell my friend about Yong and I ....
Gone ,everything is gone .....

Maybe This is what i want ??? Or ???
I am Hurting Myself ,I am wasting my times ...
I am Foolish ,I am Useless......
I am Useless ...........

I really need some one beside me ...............
I really need some one beside me ...............................Really need .........................=(


今天早上，你回答我那一句话，真的是狠狠地刺入我的心，
听到那句话，我的心，再次碎了，可能你不会明白那句话有多伤，
可是当我听到那句话时，我真的很伤心。。
我真的不知道该怎么做。。。挽留吗？不可能，因为你说你做不到，你再也给不到我幸福，
你说你已经没有那个心去做我要的东西。
昨天，我回来SUBANG，想跟你谈谈，可是，你的反应，你回答我的每一句话，都是很伤，
你说，我可以找新的男朋友，你不会介意，你说你给不到我幸福，再也给不到我我要的东西，
我跟你在回一起，只会为了同样的事情吵架，你一直不停的说，你跟本作不到我要的东西，
难道我要的东西真的这么难吗？？
你说，已经没有那种心去做一些浪漫或者可以逗我开心的事，
拜托，那些事真的那么难吗？真的没有心了？？？
这半年来，我不停的暗示你我要的东西，我并没有要求那些你做不到的东西，可是你却一直没有做到。。。。。。。。。。。。。
三年半的感情，真的就这样没了吗？？ 很可笑，我自己想了，也觉得我们分手的原因真的很可笑。
我真的很想离开这里，很想很想离开，可是不能，我根本没有地方可以去，不能回自己的家，不想跟我爸妈一起住，因为他们只会令我更烦恼！！
你说，你希望我继续住在这里，而你可以继续照顾我，你很想在继续照顾我，可是是以家人的身份，不是情侣的身分，
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。听到时，我真的不知道要说什么了。。

你不停的说，你还关心我，你对我就像你的家人一样，是家人。。。。。。。。。。
真的要放手了吗？。。。。。。。。。。BB AND DD的故事就这样画上了句号吗？
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
BB的心，真的碎了，伤心，绝望，失望，痛苦，委屈，一切不好的事情将会发生在我身上！！！
。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
BB AND DD。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

Moodless...

When i woke up ,i felt that ,i am lonely .....Like no one can accompany me ...
very boring ...Moodless......Emo........
So just went to Spa ,and relax myself....After that ,felt better already ....

Then went to Pyramid with Sopo Jess ....Have our lunch and shopping over there ...
During our Lunch session ,some one called me,she spoiled my mood.....every time i talked to her ,i will feel very sad and angry,because of her,i got no mood to take my lunch ...Moodless......I don't want to go Germany anymore !!!U STUPID Brainless!!!!
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Haiz....don't talk about her ...
And Guess what , I bought a Sailormoon superS DVD...Yeah yeah ,but only found 1 series ...

Bought new contact lens !

Yesterday ,DD brought me back to Kepong Maluri ....My secondary school .........
because i Miss there a lot.........................Emo-ing .........
My secondary school ....SMK Taman Bukit Maluri....Hmm,,so dark...not so clear!

Hmmm,about today ...Not feeling well at all..So ,didn't go anywhere ,just stayed at home for the whole day....

At night ,asked DD brought me to Taipan to buy New Contact lens .............
Hehehe,had try Blue and Green lens before....Now ,i wanted to try Grey lens ...Nice nice..Love it..
Rm50 for the lens and Rm10 for the eye drop..
My New Grey contact lens...^^

Bought some New clothes at Taipan also....No branded la...cheap cheap de..but nice..hahaha

Selfish Colleague !!

Today,went to Pyramid with DD ..and we want to help jess to solved her work problem...but finally ,didn't solved anything ,it is because of her stupid company ,HMM NOT!!!!!not company ,it is her stupid Colleagues!!!!!!!! They are Selfish ,Cheap!!!!!!! Hate them so much.....

They Don't allow Jesslin to quit her Job ,Because they want Jesslin to stay there and help them and to relieve their work load !!!! What THE HELL @#$%$%^&*)@!!
Then Jesslin Told them,she wants to get into college this week,and she had paid all the fees ,and she already missed 1 week classes,so she have to resign the JOB Immediately and get into the college!! (P/s ,Jesslin is just a Trainee ,and she got no black and white with the company!) GUESS what they says???????

ALL of them sat around Jesslin ,and talked to her ,

CHEAP &SELFISH Colleague 1 : "aiyo ,u also miss 1 week classes already ,miss 2 more week also nevermind la,help us work for 2 more week la....u can call your friend and teach u again what,or u can borrow the notes from your friend and read it yourself what"

CHEAP & SELFISH colleague 2 : "Why u so selfish one??u resign already ,who gonna take over ur JOB" (I was thinking ,Jesslin Just only a Trainee,i don't think she got so much things to do!)

CHEAP & Selfish Colleague 3 : "Do u Know ,u make us so confuse ,u make our schedule become very very MESSY!! and i also don't know is it u really want to get into college or u just LAZY!
U can't be so irresponsible ,u called the college now ,and told them u want to postpone la! "

(I was Thinking ,If a Little trainee can make your schedule so messy ,then it is your management problem,lousy management !!and u want a colleague to postpone or absent for her classed because u need her to relieve your work load??? you are just selfish!!)

CHEAP & selfish colleague 4 : "U must help us,you can't go like this,u are so irresponsible,if u go now ,we have to take over your job , we have to serve so many customer le ,u make us so confuse,go and postpone your classes la!!And Debbie wont be here for 10days,we have to serve so much customer !!!
(Debbie is her colleague too,she take 10 days off ,because wanna go for travel ,This is more irresponsible ,but nobody put blame on her !!!!),

(Oh gosh ,even jess and debbie not there ,they still have 4 manicurist there !!! Why they can't take over the job ,even their Boss also said no problem already !!!But they keep putting blame on JESS!!!!)

They are TOTALLY PUT BLAME ON JESSLIN!!!!!!!!!!!HATE THEM!!!
why ??why?why??? Just want to resign a Job also can be so difficult ???????
The boss also let JESS go already ,why they all still want to talk so much?????Just like those B*tch!!!!!!!! Crazy !! Lousy!!!! Selfish!!!! GOSH!!!!!

They are just selfish !!!!! Even jesslin was sick ,and she just take a off day ,they also though that ,jesslin cheat them....Jesslin just lazy ,she is not sick!!!!!!Not body will care about her!!!

CHEAP AND SELFISH COLLEAGUE !!!!!

Haiz...then after this ,we went to Gasoline to had our dinner !Sunway Pyramid got a New Cafe ,named Gasoline !! It is a special restaurant !!
Pirate theme restaurant....Oh ya..they have different theme at different Gasoline restaurant ...so nice...
Their cute dining table..
I love this shrimp bomb !!! nice!!
I love Longan ICE!!

At night ,Jess ,DD and I went to asia cafe "yum cha" ,after we finished our movie ,Nim's Island !!

Solve it!!No more war!!!!!!!!

Hmm,My friend ,really thx for your help before,u all help me a lot when i am facing some problem with my friend..................

But finally ,we solved it!!!!! No more war!!
Because of Sopo Lin ,Zejun and I can talk nicely to each other ,explain all the things,because i felt very boring /tired/sien with the WAR!! The war wont stop if our problem never solve !!

Today ,Finally ,I talk to her nicely ......Really nicely ....
Felt like a Friend...........It is quite good.......
I wont felt suffer ,angry and upset anymore !!
All the things ,i just let go ...........have to tolerate and forgive each others..
She told me a lot of things...and me too...We are Friend now.(maybe u all will think i am funny and childish ,but i felt very good , no more war with her,no more suffer,no more angry,no more argue!)

Because of our problem ,i learn about the lesson of friendship,every one also argue with their friend before,but we shouldn't hide it! Must talk to them,if not the relationship will become more worst ,Misunderstanding is the main reason that affects every friendship.......

Our Problem was solved..........Thx to all the friend that help me before...
Really Thx a lot......................Especially Sopo Jess...Thx u!

The stupid German Embassy!

Last week,i received a email from German Embassy,and they told me ,my application got problem,they couldn't find out "Loi Yin Yin" this person in Malaysia....
Oh MY GOD!!! when i heard this ,i really got nth to say anymore...How come they couldn't found me? i haven't die la..............Crazy man.......
Gosh .........then i informed my mum immediately ..........

and today ,i received a call from my mum ...
Mum:Yin ,How about your spm result?

Yin : Mummy ,My Result release tomorrow la....

Mum: Then what is your plan now???

Yin : Hmm, i wanna learn about bakery at Paris or Study Brand a Packaging at Uk or Germany.

Mum : Hmm,Ok ......
Oh ya ,Yin ,I find a lawyer to help u to apply the Resident Permit again,he will help us settle down all the Resident permit application!
He said,the Germany Embassy can't reject your resident permit application with the stupid reason......They must be approve your Resident Permit if they can't give a "real" Reason!!
and i use Rm10K to settle down again ,so what i wanna told u is,
you do not travel to any country between march and april ..............U Must stay at Malaysia!! If not ,the embassy can't found u again!!!

Me : HUH??????????????? 10k?? so expensive? i can go Japan already...But WhyI can't travel??????????OMG!!!!! I wanna go to Hong Kong shopping la mummy!!

Mum:oh my dear,U have to wait la..... have to wait until the Stupid German Embassy settle down all the things u just can travel .........If they wanna call u or find u, but you are in Hong Kong again,they can't found u! Then can't apply already!U must take it seriously !!!
U spoil the Resident Permit 3 time before......don't disappoint me again K!
don't waste my Rm10K again la K.......

Me : Haiz...............Then have to changed my travel plan lo!!! No More HK shopping lo!!!

Mum: K la..Bye ,take care my Dear !!!

Hmmm..is it the German Embassy system got problem???why they can't found me????SO "Laoya"!!and now ,i can't travel to HONG KONG !!!!!!Because of the Stupid German Embassy!!!!!!!! Die die die

My Blog is getting boring ....shoppiing and shopiiiiing !!And the election is cuming!

26th February 2008

Gosh !!!! Today woke up at 3pm++ ,coz yesterday watched some drama until 7am ...hahahahaha..
Then went to The curve Shopping and Watch Movie- Flood
Quite nice....we watched the Special Preview .....
Hahahahahahah....


27th February 2008
Felt very Boring at Home ,Nth to do...and DD lazy to drive so far so he just brought me to Pyramid shopping ,But i don't like to shopping at Pyramid although they have a New Wing ....Don't ask me why ,just a feeling..
remember that ,last year i shifted to subang ,then DD brought me To Pyramid ,that time i am quite disappointed on Pyramid ....Before i stayed at Damansara so i seldom go to Pyramid shopping ,mostly to 1 utama....so I don't know that Pyramid was small..i though it is a big shopping centre...but the truth was ............A small and boring shopping centre with little choices of shops.... Until today i still don't like to shopping at Pyramid......just a feeling ....And now i prefer Pavilion ...it is a nice shopping centre...Love to shopping there!

28th February 2008
Have been visit to some blogger's page ............they just remind me that ,the election is coming !!!
Is the time to change the world ..........hehehehehe.....I support the Rocket 1 ,DAP...But i found something very funny about DAP was ,They release a "CUTE"
soft toy for some KID ........... when i saw the soft toy ,i was thinking ,hmmm...It really look like something ...........hahahahah....BUt The soft toy still Very CUTE !! And the Soft toy Call
"Rocket KID"..

With the mascot, the party attempts to attract more of the younger generation, including children who have yet to assume their rights to vote, to grow fonder of DAP.

Limited edition only - RM10 per piece. Please contact DAP HQ (Tel: +603-79578022/79578127) for further details.

A video from DAP :

And i found some video from kenny sia blog :
A video that attack the DAp ,so bad ...


And found something at you tube also :
A "RASUAH Sayang eh" ...

Jealousy & Envy !

JEALOUS！！！！！！

According to many authors, jealousy is a complex emotion, meaning that it is not possible to provide a simple and immediate description of it, as it would be for “basic” emotions like joy or anger.....
As said formerly, jealousy is more that a mere, sudden emotion. It consist in an entire “emotional episode” including the circumstances that lead up to jealousy, jealousy itself as emotion, any attempt at self regulation, subsequent actions and events and the resolution of the episode . There’s a complex “narrative” behind jealousy . as it is perceived and thought by the jealous. The origin of this narrative is extremely relevant to understand the nature of jealousy. The narrative can originate from experienced facts, thoughts, perceptions, memories, but also imagination, guess and assumptions. The more society and culture matter in the formation of these factors, the more jealousy can have a social and cultural origin

Coping with jealousy

People who experience pathological jealousy, and people for whom jealousy triggers violence, may benefit from professional counseling. People who experience normal jealousy have at least nine strategies for coping with jealousy. The problem-solving strategies include: improving the primary relationship, interfering with the rival relationship, demanding commitment, and self-assessment. The emotion-focused strategies include: derogation of partner or rival, developing alternatives, denial/avoidance, support/catharsis, and appraisal challenge. These strategies are related to emotion regulation, conflict management, cognitive change, and ground rules for managing jealous competition. The most important thing to do about any feelings of jealousy is to first admit them, and then attempt to overcome them. Polyamory groups encourage the replacement of jealousy with compersion, or empathizing with a lover's joy with another lover.

"Are Jealous me?????????????"
Do u dare to ask your friend this question ??

If u can do this ,mean u are really have a great confidence about yourself .
Or might be not !

This is some basic condition about Jealousy !
1,U will try to find out all the detail about her .
2,U will try to find out the bad part about her .
3,Try to let her know u are better than her .
4,Try to Do the best and compare with her .
5 ,Try to Copy her ,or do what she like to do,
or buy what she like to buy ,or get what she like to get !
6,Do all the things that she done before .
7,Try to Deny Deny and Deny

Example 1 :
1 days ,u are shopping with your friend ,u all went to a shop ,and she is looking for a shoes ,and she found nice shoes and show it to you ....and told u that she like the shoes pattern,
and the others days,u bought a shoes that almost same with her ..
and u try to deny that you are copying her !

Example 2:
Your friend was rich ,and a pretty girl ,(prettier than u and richer than u) ...
U try to finding some evidence that can prove that she was not really rich at all ,
or you try to told some one that she is not that pretty and try to told everyone that about her weakness .U also will try to show off or prove that to everyone you are better than her ,or u can get what she get !

Example 3 :
Your friend was a very clever girl ,she always get the excellent result and your are not ,
u try to hide her text book or try to hinder her studying ,and she can't get the good result (mostly occur in childhood )

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So don't try to deny ,if your are jealous in some one ,u should try to envy and set her as your role model ,if u really hope to become better than her !

Envy !!!!!
Envy and jealousy are distinct in their object. Jealousy concerns something one has and is afraid of loosing, while envy concerns something one does not have and either he wants to acquire or he wants the other(s) not to have (malicious envy) . A comparison between jealousy and envy can be carried out in order to understand their differences and similarities. Possible objects of love can be possible objects of jealousy; possible object of self esteem can be possible object of envy. Love and self esteem, which appear to be the main reasons for the two emotions, are extremely positive values, so that there could be some good in envy and jealousy. In fact, nonmalicious envy can “motivate people to improve themselves”.

It has been proved that envy has an important role in society, a so strong influence on human facts that “there are crimes of envy, politics based on envy, institutions designed to regulate envy and powerful motives for avoiding being envied by others!


This post is special for some one that who are jealous me or jealous your friend as well!!
Read it ,it might help u ..

And i will leave you ,if i found that u start to copying me or jealous me !I Hate !!!

what Should i Do now???

OMG!!!! school reopen star from tomorrow ,every one have to back to the school or college !!!
DD start his crazy ACCA again at tomorrow !!!
And others ,also found their own job ,even Jesslin also found a nice job at pyramid !!
But me???? just after spm ....Result haven't publish ,i don't know which type of course i am interested ,and i also don't want to so fast continue study again ..so sien !
And I am applying the immigration ,and the rules is ,during applying the immigration,i cant travel!!
swt swt swt!! what i shoud do now?? I am just a weird things,that always sleep eat sleep eat or shopping or watch movie at home for the whole day !!

1 word : BORING !

What should i do?? should i find some job?? but i scared i can't tahan ...i hate the job control my life!! i hate ,if start to work,i have to follow the job schedule !! No shopping ,watch movie ,yum cha at anytime any more !! and i don't know which type of job i am interested also !!I don't want to be promoter ! very tired !! but now,student all also be a promoter !!
But today i heard Jesslin said that ,her job is very fun ,not suffer at all..very easy job... should i work with her together ?? .
But ,i scare ,i don't dare to try ,because i am a lazy person ,and i hate to work for other !
and i am those "3 minute hot"person ,i scared i will get bored with my job ,and people will hate me,if i just work for a few month or few week!

But DD advise me to take some course ,he know i love bakery ,he suggest me to take some bakery course ,then i wont be so boring !! YA i love this advise ... BUT ,where to found those BAKERY COURSE ?? any one know about this???

Or any advise for me???

DD help me by uing his blog!!! this is the truth ,read yourself ya!

Stop Bullshitting.. zzz

(edited on 10pm, 26Dec07 - "F" word striked out + added some info)
(this blog is copy from DD blog de,he was scolding those copy cat with the real fact!!)

this is a war that started long long time ago, but recently it continues here

I never want to do this SHIT on my blog but now I will.. I never wanna involve in this sucks game as I thought someone will just wake up and look at what she's done.. but NO, instead she stepped deeper into the sin and won't stop fucking people..

I don't want to teach HISTORY here.. you know best yourself, and to all the gentlemen and ladies that don't know much about the past, just see for yourselves the recent happening if you want to know what happened.. it's no need for YinYin to further explain herself or the copycat to defense her own..


and since some illiterate Anonymous requested the meaning of copycat..
for the benefit of all, the definition of COPYCAT (from dictionary.com) is :

–noun (Also, copy cat)

1.	a person or thing that copies, imitates, mimics, or follows the lead of another, as a child who says or does exactly the same as another child.

–adjective

2.	imitating or repeating a recent, well-known occurrence

–verb (used with object)

3.	to imitate or mimic: new domestic wines that copycat the expensive imports.

4.	to copy slavishly; reproduce: The clothes were copycatted straight from designer originals.

and the definition of Anonymous
-adjective : lacking individuality, unique character, or distinction: an endless row of drab, anonymous houses.

simply said, anonymous = no individuality (no personal style), or no distinctive characteristic that can differentiate them with other people, or simply said = NO NAME or rather live in the shadow / shame of their name being known etc etc..

Enough of definition, next time if you don't understand some words.. just use your dictionary to find out, my blog ain't dictionary.. zzz.. if don't know how to read dictionary, just log on to www.dictionary.com


Just look at copycat blog la (so sorry that the blog has closed down by the CAT, no idea what's her intention, maybe want to burn the evidence? but we have a copy of it if you interested to see it xD), don't fucking tell me everything so damn coincidence la.. Christmas time everyone post about Christmas, this is damn NORMAL.. but just after YinYin post something regarding her 10 favourite things, you came out with "my favourite magazine"? don't say coincidence la, I'm sick of this kinda excuse already.. unless you have the SAME MIND.. I don't know la.. maybe U can fucking read people mind? or can fucking imitate someone's action. or maybe you have some special mimic ability than normal sound human don't have.. maybe you're copycat-lady? who knows? shot a movie about your super-ability and share with the world la..

and EXCUSE me.. since when YinYin write her favourite magazine is POPTEEN?? please let me know if she did or I miss anything on the blog or anywhere else.. but I'm TELLING you that you have NO FACTS at all when you want to debate.. I guess only you alone can do that kinda of thing?
in case you don't know, not in case, sorry, I'm doubly sure you don't know anything.. the FACT is YinYin long long long long long long long time never read POPTEEN already.. zzzzz

everyone feed puppies la, girl.. don't say something so FUCKING GENERAL can ah?? give me SOME FACT.. who cares just only ONE fucking REAL FACT.. if you don't understand the blog, i copy and paste again here..

" Next week , She told every body that her Bf gonna buy a dog for her !!!
what the hell!! what she told me and what she do is totally different !! "

understand now? do I need to fucking define every words for you AGAIN sohai? you don't know how to check dictionary meh?

Friendster and blog is again so fucking common thing that everyone do la.. so you trying to say all users of friendster trying to COPY you?? do you want me to do you a favour and tell the world that they are copying you? or would you just do yourself this favour?
do I need to tell the bloggers including MYSELF who register after you register is COPYING you when WE NEVER POST A SINGLE TOPIC SAME AS YOU???

LAME.. zzzz CAN YOU GIVE ME SOME FACT SO THAT I CAN SAY NOTHING BUT TO SHUT UP???????? I'm sienz of typing the same words = NO FACT, again and again...

Mc Donald is fucking normal too laaaaa donkey.. but the fact that I know is you never said you love McD so much until recently... but for her, I listen the word "favourite McD" until I scare already.. everyday eat McD until I also scare..

SHOW OFF or not we know ourselves better la.. the writing style clearly shows everything.. I don't want to offend other bloggers here.. if you really fucking wanna know why (or maybe you knew it yourself), then let me know.. I'll TELL IT OUT LOUD here...

regarding outlook, I don't need say anything la... whoever got eyes can log on to Friendster to see.. my baby is definitely better than you.. zzz

if you still don't understand about shadow thingy.. let me explain once MORE..
why is it EVERY time after YinYin change new style / use new accessories, you will do the same things?? or is it FUCKING coincidence again? Let me warn you, don't copy me by saying it is GENERAL MATTER as it is NOT general at all.. if it is so general? why is it I only see you and YinYin using the same accessories / dressing the same style when she has so many friends in her friends list? Not same style actually, but SIMILAR Dress / Clothes etc but in different colours..

Let me teach you about qualification dude..
When people scold YinYin, of course she has the qualification to fight back la.. zzz
But when people say NOTHING about you.. who ON earth that you have the qualification to criticized people when you ain't perfect at all??
Did YinYin say her bad things at her back? Did she?? You fucking tell me.. you have ZERO fact and you still want to talk SHIT here is it?? Everything I say, YinYin say, we say only the FACT.. and the FACT is, the COPYCAT love to CRITICIZED people even the person that once helps her so much.. CopyCat, you tell me la.. if not because of Yin, will you change? maybe you will, but when? when you are 20 years old? think la.. only know how to BACK STAB people.. the FACT is you are DOUBLE-DEALERS.. if you wondering how I know.. I know it from your ex-friends..

Oh my dear, you are damn CLEVER this round.. I'm 19 this year, BINGO.. and the car my dad buy for me, BINGO.. but you miss one FACT again.. zzzzz.. There's a reason why I have the car, my dad bought that because of my effort behind it which you have no idea at all.. simply said, your boy work to earn $, whereas I study to earn $.. why not put it this way, if he can do what I've done and been doing for to get the car, I'll BUY him a car that he LOVE..
On top of that.. not that I want to compare.. but if you want to compare.. 5 years down the road when I'm the age of your boy, I triply sure I can EARN MORE than him.. zzzzzzzz..

To get a view of your FACT-less comment.. I copy paste the comment here.. sorry for the copyright, you can sue me if you want..

"you're damn freaky SOHAI !!!!!!!!! SOHAI Rubbish Old woman !! Haha !! You are just a poor TRAMP !!!! A Rubbish TRAMP !!!! A Disabled person !!!! A despicable person !!!! A degrading person !!!! A sordid person !!!! A SUPER HYPER DAMN FUCKING CHEAP PERSON IN THE WHOLE WORLD ! haha ! YOU ARE SO UGSOME !!!!" --by Anonymous (again)

only know how to scold WITHOUT FACT.. zzzzzzzz CAN YOU FUCKING SHOW SOME FACT IN YOU ARGUEMENTS?? everyone can scold la.. but did you see me Scold like what you did in my blog... zzzzzzzz..

Anonymous, who ever you are.. I pity you this Name-less dudes.. but if you want war...
BRING IT ON....

I've stay silence for too long.. but I WARN you in the first place.. if you want debates.. show some FACT.. my blog is not for you to BULLSHIT.

Rich and Poor .....................

Rich and Poor !!!!!

This is the bad problem between human ........

Rich .........
Some 1 is rich ,they have their over million/billion property ...
They can get every things that they want .....


Poor........
Some 1 is poor ,they have to work so hard for their meal ...
They cant get every things they want .......


I Admire those people that ,They have mature thinking ,and they work hard for their meal ,and they can bought every thing by their own salary .... Like 1 of My best friend .....
,she said ,when she get the job ,she will bring half of her salary back to the home,and give it to her family.. ........OMG!! SHe is just 17years old ,ok!!!! She also try to bought her favorite car by her self ...She is a strong girl ....She wanna become a Cabin Crew at Mas ....
Hope that she can get the job!!!This is what i admire !!!

I hate those people that ,who like to show off and they are not Rich at ALL!!!!!
They like to criticized other or look down at those ppl that who are poor ...
Ok ,If i wanna look down at some one,please look at your self first........Poor is not a crime!!
Ya,they are poor ,but they don't show off like u ,and they work hard for their every meal !!
(This is what i cant do that!!)

But I will look down at those people who are poor,but they still wanna show off or look down at people.............................This is what i hate !!!!!!I am damn hate!!!!

I face to some problem .......
When some of my friend saw that ,i bought some branded stuff,they will said ,show off!!
But let me tell u !!! I buy ,because it is Nice ,good quality and it is suit for me!!
Isit Buy Branded is a crime????
WHy u all like to said that,those people who buy Branded Just wanna show off!!!
Come on !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Why They call Branded???
It is the Quality ok !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Like a watch ,
A watches from branded,Like Rolex !!!
And A watches from Pasar malam ....

A watches from Rolex ,u can use it with a very long period ....It is very nice and good quality!!
And A watches from Pasar malam ,Maybe after 3 month ,the watches will be damage or what!!
Can u see the different ???

YA , I know ,those branded is very expensive .........But if people can afford it ,why u still wanna criticized them??? Ya ,I know quite a lot of people buy branded just wanna show off!!
But Not everyone OK!!!!!!!!
If u are the Rich one ,do u think u wont buy any things or any branded that u want ?????
COme on ..........Don't keep saying people are show off!!!

This is what i hate!!!!!!People can afford it then just let it la....
why still wanna criticized!!!

HAppy Day..

I am quite happy today ,why??? because SPM just leave 2 subject , and today i went to KLCC with jesslin ,she very very long never go KLCC ,so just felt like wanna bring her go ,some more my cousin brought me to the beauty Fair at KL convention center..hehe,i am quite lucky today, i played the lucky spin ,what i got is a pack of calcium capsule ,ah hahahah,it is suit me ,because i never drink milk !!!! so lucky ,and what jesslin get??? Just a Memo Pad!!! ahahahahhahahahah!!
funny!!!!! After that,we went to KLCC and have our lunch there!!! GOSH !!! SO many people,
like Pasar malam la!! and i didn't buy anything today ,why?? KLCC too many people ,very hard to shop ,so just eat eat eat and eat ....NTH special....
Then at NIght ,my dear dear bring me to the POPULar Mamak ,Located at ss2,hmm,they have a very special roti canai ,Roti special ,Roti Hawai,ROti salad,roti seafood ,etc...a lot of food there!!
ALl Nice nice le,u all should go and try ,at Ss2 ,behind prince cafe ,very easy to go,when u reach there u can saw a lot of people are eating there....The Mamak name is Murni..
And yesterday ,i saw a idiot pervert leaved me a comment.all he said is just a shit talk ,and nonsense ,and luckily all my friend stand by my side ,and always stand beside me ,help me ad protect me!!!!So some 1 who try to criticize or bully me...u will just fail to do it !! so don't think about that!!!! ANd THX ALL MY FRIEND!!

the 7x7 for 49days ...................Mama ,rest in peace!!

Today ,i wake up at 7 am...so early right ,but it is because i cant sleep anymore..don't know why...i cant sleep over 7 hour..die lo..almost become a ah po ..haiz...and today is the days that have to pray for my grandma..because today is the 49days after she pass away!!!and we went to the Fairy Park -Klang ,the place that she was buried !!we go at 9am...everyone is going ....all my relative...haha...so many people......almost 30minute... we reach there...

First ,we pray for the "tou dei gong" (the god that take care of the land one)..and wait for others to come lo..we are the 1st to reach there.......muahahahahahaha.......

(the gardens of Fairy park!!!!!!)
(the Fairy park....the place that my grandma was buried!!!)

(I bet that,u all sure will know what is this......amitabha.....)

(They burning somethings for my grandma...Mama..hope that,u will like it and rest in peace!!)
(anyone know the function of the colour paper???hmm..i don't know...but have to burn it !!)

(OMG!!!! what the hell...it is 5 million dollar !!! so good,everyone can be a millionaire already!!!!billionaire also can!!!!!!!!)\

After that ,it is almost 12pm ...then we have our lunch at the popular Bah Kut Teh restaurant at Klang!!!!! wth!! so many people there...we have to wait ...the people is eating there..but we have to stand beside the table.and wait for them...so funny!!if not we got no table and chair to sit la...
almost 10 minute....they finished their food..then turn to us......we got 11 people there...we order 4 large clay pot Bah Kut teh ,and a lot of "yao cha guai" ..haha....it is nice...but i don't eat pork,so just drink the sup and eat the rice with "yao cha guai",although it is so weird..but the Bah Kut Teh still very nice le......haha....i ate 2 plate of rice...everyone too..because everyone is hungry!!!!!!!!And i wanna become a 200 pound beauty lo....if i become 200 pound beauty ,Jia hao sure very happy...because he always said that,he hope to see that,i become 200 pound beauty!!!SO Bad hor!!!!!!

After our lunch ,then we all go back ourself..some go back damansara..some go back melacca,some go back Kl ,and some ,like us,go back that stupid subang jaya!!!!!And my aunty going pavilion loooo !!!!!i wanna go..but stupid dear dear don't want to bring..he said that spm is coming soon..no gaigai allow!!! Haiz...so just go back home,online and create blog lo...............hate SPM!!!

Appreciate the friendship......

Today........is a boring day..i wake up at 3:15pm..damn..it is too late..siao....Dear dear also came back already............Hmn...Nothing to do....then go n watch my favorite drama.....At night...when chatting with my friend..she told me that,she has created a new blog....ask me to read it...OMG!!it is so funny.....when she describes about her brother...haha..but when i was reading about my part...it is so touching...i almost cry....I know that,my friend still care me ,she still very like me...I am so regret that.....why i always think a lot of useless things...I am so stupid....ERm Jess...we will be Best Friend forever........Love u......haha......after that,i go n read another blog..1 of my friend's blog....she is my best friend too....from the blog,i know,we done a lot of mistake...we break up our relationship before ,but finally we are still friend...Jun,I will appreciate the friendship that we created...
HMn...Let me describe about my friend la...

Jesslin:

(this is sopo jesslin....OMG!!she never eat lollipop before..)

(OMG!!!!Sexy Jess...after swimming le..at sunway lagoon..)

This is mY best friend ,Sopo Lin...(the way i call her),real name..wei tian a.k.a jesslin....she is a very talkative girl.... she will never stop talking whenever she go or whatever she do....and a ppl who always said "OmG,y my body so nice,why i am so cute"...haha..actually she is a very cute gals la...haha...Since march 2007,i Know her....the 1st time i saw...i dont like her...i feel that,she look like very evil...and..bla bla bla..(cant tell,later she kill me)...she always talk to me...she likes to bang the table when i was sleeping in the class..and woke me up!!!and ask me to king gai with her!Damn...What the hell !!PPl sleeping there...You go and kacau....That time i almost wanna kill her..but Later,i felt that ,she is a very kind people...she very care about me,and she treats me very good...always come to my house ,and accompany me ,when my dear has extra classes...She will bring a bottle of mineral for me when we meet or school time....it is sampat??or caring??haha....she is very hardworking..she always work for amour boutique when they need staff.....and she always do well,and never complain or grumble before....so when u need a staff to work for u...just find her....haha...she like to buy stuff too....always buy a lot of stuff...i remember that,she bought 8 different colours of a same blouse ...what for??so sampat right,when i asked her,why she buy so many,she told me that ,because nice and cheap,only RM16 each...damn....sampat!isn't she???haha..this is jess...

(she is Ze jun,My another best fren...cute rite??)

HMn...I know her since form3 ,year 2005 when i shifted to smk taman bukit maluri ...she is a very sensitive girls...so u must not hurt her or what,if not she will think a lot of negative things ....very hard to gao dim her.....She is a kind person...she is a shy girls when i know her back then..she dare not make up, she scare ppl will laugh at her....but now....she becomes a very cute girl...she likes to make up and this has made her look more and more attractive le..haha...and she like to eat egg tart ....everyday must eat...her breakfast ,everyday also the same..egg tart...haha...


This is ,shuyi,liying and jiet kee,i know them since form4,that time i have to shift to their school,SmK Bandar utama 4.....Liyin is my classmate...she is a playful girl..always talk a lot of nonsense ,but very easy to make her laugh...she laugh always..and jiet kee,she is in the different class...i know her through liying,she is very good in taking picture...she know how to pose...haha..and shuyi....a pretty girls,she has a very fair skin..but she always complain that she is fat,but actually not..haiz...she study at sri kdu.....how i know her??because of liying too..haha..

(This is Khai ching....)
she is my good friend too...before i know her,i thought she is very cool...seldom talk....the 1st time i saw her,is at melacca geh Kfc...that time she never talk to me...because she is angry about her sis...her sis fong fei gei....i met her because of my bf,actually she is my bf's best friend..then my bf wanna introduce her for me.....she seems like very hate me,because of misunderstanding ...but we solve it...now we are very good friend..we chat always..and we went shopping at the curve before..just the 1st time we shopping together..she really look very sweet when she smile..haha..i like it.....................

OK....U all also read till very boring right..this is my last 1 ....Susan,Yit wei,Riang Riang.....My best friend b4....we know each other since kinder gardens ......very very very long time ago...
we are very good friend before..we always talk together,study together,play together,yum cha together...........but at last.....we also got some prob.....but we already solved it...so we are still friend now..i will appreciate it..........

So ,that is all my best friend......I will appreciate it....forever and ever.....so do u have a best friend??If got..please......appreciate the friendship that u have now.........

爱情，友情，亲情。。。。 这些都是什么？？？

爱情，友情，亲情。。。。
那一个是最值得珍惜的？有谁可以得到？？
爱情，我有了。。有一个很好的男友，时常陪我，照顾我。。。。非常的疼我。。
现在，我住在他爸爸公司给的公寓，也就是跟他一起住。。
本来，我从小就跟公公婆婆住的，可是最近他们去世了，
爸爸妈妈都在国外，少回来。。。我为一可以依靠的，就是我男朋友了。。
他，无论什么时候都回陪着我。。无论伤心或开心。。。
真得很喜欢他。。。。。。
（我跟我男朋友）

友情。。。
我想这是我一辈子都得不到的东西。。
从小，我都有很多朋友。。每当我生日时，都会邀请所有认识的朋友，
很多很多。。。可是，却没有一个真正是我最好的朋友。。
到了中学中一，我开始有了新朋友，还有跟一些小学朋友成为了最要好的朋友，
起初，我真的觉得很幸福。。很开心。。。我们时常集合和在一个朋友的家，
她家是电器店，所以很多电器，附近又有小食店。。。记得他们很喜欢买asam laksa跟炸香蕉来吃，
而我只是吃香蕉，我不敢吃laksa...怕它的味道。。。哈哈。。我们一边谈天一边吃，有时还说起别人的坏话叻，哈哈。。不过真得很开心。。但是，一年后，就是中二的时候，我们的感情开始有问题了，，我也认识了新朋友，而他们也是。。我们之间产生了很多误会。。真得很多，大家互相讨厌对方。。。时常吵架。。。感情真得很差。。。最后还翻脸了。。。。
之后，中三，我转校了。。认识了很多新朋友。。也找到了一个最要好的朋友。。。
我，时常放学后就去她家，上网，谈天。。还有，她时常会无端端看着我，对我说“盈，你真的很美也，真的很美，我真的很喜欢你咯，”，哈哈，很容易会被人家误会她是同性恋。。好好笑。。
我们的感情一直都很好。。。她是一个又害羞，有没有自信的女孩，很少打扮自己。。。
可是我却是一个很爱美的人，所以，常常逼她去买那些美美的衣，和裙子。。
有一次，她有了男朋友，第一次跟他出街，她终于都穿裙子了。。好可爱哦。。可是她却上遮下遮，
怕人家说她。。。真得很好笑。。久了，她也开始会打扮她自己了。。。人也美了，又自信了。。哈哈。
可是不好的事发生了。。我们的身边，往往都有很多小人，他们喜欢破坏人家的感情。。
我跟她的感情，开始变了，开始听到她的讽刺，听到她说我的坏话，开始背叛我了，我不在相信友情，不会！！而我，也开始讨厌她了，
变得很少跟她讲话。。。也开始对她说那些讽刺的话。。想起，真的好傻。。。。。
到了中四，我又转校了。。我们也很少联络了。。。在新的学校，又有新的朋友。。不过，他们都对我很好。。。我们的感情没有变，保持很好。。还记得，我们每次下课都会吃nugget 喝air tebu。。。都很开心。。而还有另一个朋友，他很可爱，白白的，每天说他自己肥的，是通过我朋友介绍的。。很好人哦。。

一直到中五的四月。。。我就搬到subang了，跟我男友一起住。。当然，又在转校咯。。
当我第一天转进smk usj8时，真得很讨厌这学校。。。当然也认识了新朋友。。。。
不过她们都让我感觉很好笑（原因是秘密噢）。。不久我有了一个好朋友。。。。她很sampat,起初，我觉得她很烦，去哪里都要跟。。可是久了，发现他真得不错。。。
（我和她）
我们时常一起喝茶，一起出街。。还记得，当我跟他谈到，关于品牌的时候，她什么都不会，当时我真的很怕伤到她，可是没有，她肯学。。于是我就时常带她去认识那些品牌。。。而现在，她都会了。。。哈哈。。。而，我了，就从她身上学会了，开心。。跟他在一起，真得很开心。。这是我最想的到的。。在他面前，不需要掩饰任何东西。。。很舒服。。而，她也是我那么多朋友之中，最了解我的。。。但是我的心还是没变，我永远也不会100% 相信我的朋友。。。永远！！！自从多次的失败后，我的疑心越来越重了。。只要让我发现，有人开始作怪，或想要借一些小事来说我的坏话，我就会开始讨厌那个人！！最近我跟她，好像有问题了，不再像以前这样，有说有笑。。。。相信，友情又要失败了。。。。。。。。她不在是以前的她。。变得得意忘形，忽略了很多东西，。。。人总是会得意忘形。。。包括我自己。。。而我得意忘形的情况，是出现在友情上，时常因为以为成功了，而松懈，最后却失败。。。。得意忘形，真的是很让人讨厌行为。。。
我的友情，真的很失败。。。。。。。。不过，她还是我一直最信任的朋友，希望，她会永远对我好，不会背叛我。。。。。。。。。。。。我想我的友情指数只有40%吧。。。刚刚好及格而已。。。。

亲情。。。
怎么说。。。。
在我还是baby的时候，
我父母就离婚了。。。而我就被我公公婆婆照顾。。。
我跟他们的感情很好，他们很保护我。。。不会让我受伤害。。
期间，我双亲都一直要求我回去他们身边。。。
可是我不要，而婆婆也很保护我，不让他们抢走我。。
因为我讨厌他们，而且对他们也很陌生，在加上我不喜欢外国的生活！！
而婆婆，怕我会被我后母欺负，因为我爸已经有了新的老婆。。
而我妈呢，也有了她自己的家庭。。。婆婆怕我妈会忽略我，因为我跟我妈一直都有很多问题。
时常会吵架。。。。。。。
公公跟婆婆正的很保护我，很疼我。。。。无论我要什么，他们都会买给我。。
我想要去哪里玩，他们都会带我去。。时常带我去吃我最喜欢的东西，每天早上都放了不同的早餐，全都是我喜欢吃的。。。。我觉得我是世界上最幸福的小孩。。比起那些有父母在身边的小孩，还要
幸福一百倍。。。。。他们是在这个世上，对我最好的人，，也是我最爱的人！！！
每一年我都会跟我的父母见面。。。。每当我跟他们吵架了，婆婆知道了，
都会帮我出头，，都会更加疼我。。。。。。而公公也会生气他们。。。
可是我的最害怕的恶梦开始了。。。中三那年，公公得了肺痨，不到一个月就去世了。。
当时的我，真接受不了。。。为什么要这样，为什么要抢走我的公公。。。。我一半的幸福不见了。。
当时我只剩下婆婆。。。。婆婆是我唯一的依靠，。。唯一的。。。可是那时我已经在KL了，不再婆婆的乡下住，每个月我都会回去。。。婆婆都会煮我喜欢的芋头糕给我吃，带我去吃我喜欢的炒鱼。。
然后会买好多好多的东西给我。。。。。。真的很开心的。。。。中四那年，当disneyland开在香港时，我很想去，我告诉了婆婆 ，而她也答应了，年尾带我去。。。可是，在九月的时候，婆婆病倒了。。。
起初发现不到是什么病，可是最后证明了是淋巴癌！！当我听到这个消息，我。。。。。。。。不懂怎么办。。。。。真的不懂怎么办。。我的恶梦越来越接近我了！！这个病弄到婆婆很辛苦的，本来那年的十二月，她要跟我去香港的，可是她病了，不过她告诉我，病好了会跟我一起去。。。。。但是不好的是他的病时好时坏，医生也说，帮不到了。。。。一直到今年的九月十五日，下午六点。。。婆婆走了。。。在走前她开始呼吸困难，很辛苦。。不过她还是坚持。。因为她要等我，等到我去，无论如何都要见我最后一面。。。当我赶到那边，看见她那么辛苦我身的好心痛。。。。她见到我了。。可是不到五分钟她就走了。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。为什么！！！！！！！！！为什么要这样！！！！！
我真的接受不到！！！我接受不了这个事实！！！！！我不要！我不要她离开我！！！她还答应我，病好了，会跟我一起去香港的！！
我。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。现在已经失去我最亲的人了。。。。。
而。。。现在的我就是最不幸福的小孩。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
我最亲爱的人离我而去。。。。。。
世界上最疼我的人走了。。。‘
世界上最保护我的人走了。。。
世界上最关心我的人走了。。。。
世界上最爱我的人也走了。。。。。。。。。。。。
我。。。。。。。。。已经是。。。。一无所有。。。什么都不是了。。。。
我好想念。。。好想念他们。。真的很想念。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
时光可以倒流嘛？？？可以吗？？。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

Alone..................

Now,1:51am ,i am alone here....................no one is accompany me here.......and i feel alone............i miss her so much............reallllly miss her.........what can i do now....without her,i am just a lonely kid.........i miss u ,i miss u alot.............................................!!!!!!!!!!! Face to the computer,keep viewing our photo...........It made me Miss u again and again......................mama,how r u?? Are u ok??how r u there?? y u dint go in my dream,tell me how r u there??yyy??? i miss u alot........................mama...........!!!!!!!!!!!!!